Just Enough Grace for Today

As I stood in church this past Sunday singing the words to the song, Good, Good Father, I looked down at Emmy and couldn't help but think about just how good we have it. It was Mother's Day, and with it being my first as a mother myself, it was special for that reason alone. It also brought about a lot of feelings about just how hard that day is and can be for some people. It hit me like a ton of bricks that I had been focusing far too much on the negative and the things I wish I could change, as opposed to being thankful for all the truly good things in my life. Instead of being so sad and bitter about my journey into motherhood looking different than I always imagined, I choose to be thankful that I got pregnant easily and carried a baby to term and get to hold and love on that baby every day. Instead of being sad that so many of our days are consumed with doctor's appointments and therapy, I choose to be grateful that the timing of E's birth and my job allow me t...

This is the most random Emmy update, and mostly a lot of venting on my part about where we are on this journey so far. Maybe it makes me feel better by writing it all out, so here we go! The first day after my mom went back home and Wes went back to work was scary at first, but overall we had a fantastic day. Things just flowed naturally, and we got to do our own thing on our own time. I was thinking, "Hey, I might actually be able to do this thing." Haha Then, we had our first cardiology appointment the following day. My 11 day post C-section self managed to lug a baby and diaper bag into Children's Hospital by myself where Wes met us for our appointment. I was already flustered because a) this is all new and b) Emmy was screaming at the top of her lungs and I was getting all sorts of looks. For future reference, when you see a mom (or anyone for that matter) with a young child making a little more noise than you would prefer, don't give them a look or turn to so...